Is it normal to b diagnosed with social anxiety but
I feel a little invalidated about my mental health since I got diagnosed with autism because the last psychologist said any anxiety or depression I experience is normal to feel a little bit of when you have autism. But what she didnt take into account is that clinical depression runs in my family for example.
My anxiety is constant. Suddenly it can come on out of nowhere. When I surpress my feelings of anxiety for too long I start getting physical sensations. Choking sensations are common for me and I have ended up at the ER a couple of times. It has nothing to do with any social situations most of the time. Yeah I get extreme dose of anxiety after a phone call and stuff like that too, but its a different. Its not long lasting and can last an hour tops during which I sit and feel very stupid and basically just rock back and forth telling myself how stupid I am in my head. Thats my social anxiety.
The other anxiety I have feels entirely different. In some cases it can even fire me up and make me appear more confident, ironically. It feels like crawling in my whole body, physically, and like fireworks going off in my brain and like claustrophobia and terror all at once. For short whiles I can transfer it into an agressive form of energy that actually breaks through my SOCIAL anxiety temporarily but unfortunately makes me easily agitated. But what it does the most to me is I sit in the dark by myself with some music on to calm myself down and wonder what the hell is wrong and wether the bad feeling im having means something bad is about to happen and then I convince myself thats what it means and the anxiety gets worse and I become fearful. I start having nightmares and awake all night cant sleep. Suddenly one day its much better again for no reason, just like it appeared for no reason and im happy for no reason. I'm seeing a new psychologist soon and ive been wondering if this is something worth bringing up or if its normal social anxiety.