Is it normal to be biromantic homosexual

I date men and I have feelings for men but in recent years not often. When I try to be intimate with a man its so off putting. Ive never experienced a traditional family life so ive always wanted to make one for myself one day, be wife and husband and own a house... Havent thought about if its what is right for me. I never plan my future seriously. I am too scattered minded for that kind of focus.

I find it hard to consider myself bi. Ive never had sex because ive only dated men. I want nothing to do with peen. I dont even like kissing men but I do it when I date because I have to.
The reason ive never dated women is I have no friends. I have really bad social phobia, even after exposure therapy and exposing myself without therapy for many years on and off. I cant even get a job without a help coach. Its a miracle I made it through all school years with good attendance and decent grades. I can date, because on tinder you chat first, but theres an overflow of men on tinder and no queer women... I know there's many lesbians and bi women where I live but they have friends and they go out, not on tinder. Most women when i've been working or internship they talk about their boyfriend a lot, or children if they have any, or both. It makes me uncomfortable. Even when I was with my ex I hated to talk about it. I loved him, he's still very important to me, but it was half a relationship. I rather isolate. I am ashamed of my inexperience. Now I have come to a conclusion that I am biromantic but homosexual. I dont know how that fixes anything though. I am involved with a man. He is aware of me having questioned this a lot. He seems a bit fruity himself...

I am still hopeful I can get over my feeling of sex with men being gross. I really want a normal life with a good job, a husband, a house, and kids I guess... The whole picture, so I can feel accomplished. Sure the idea of living my life with a woman feels more appealing but at the same time fills me with shame.