Is it normal to be obsessed with gore/mutilation/death against one's will?

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I struggle with obsessing over blood, gore, mutilation (of myself, i.e., sewing things into myself, cutting, biting), cannibalism, and death. I hate the thoughts, and I am unable to stop them. They scare the shit out of me, and I don't want to hurt anyone ever. I've always had an obsession with blood as a kid. It has just escalated beyond the point of being safe. I also watch death videos or look for gore pictures, and I have no idea why as I have a huge love and compassion for people. Thoughts of cannibalism scare the actual soul out of me, but it just appears in my head "bite a chunk out of an arm see the blood what would the taste be" "bone bone bone" "eat the leg," and every time those thoughts happen I cry. I had an issue today where I had an extreme urge to slit my throat to see the arteries squirt blood. I'm scared I'm going to hurt someone or kill myself someday with this obsession, but I can't stop the thoughts. I don't want them. I'm scared. I'm so worried; I don't want any of this. Is it normal?

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18% Normal
Based on 17 votes (3 yes)
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  • AmourPropre
    2 years ago

    These sound like intrusive thoughts, but they’re obviously very violent and distressing for you to think about. Have you ever spoken to anyone about these thoughts? If they’ve plagued you for a long time, maybe you need to seek help for this.

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  • [Old Memory]
    2 years ago

    You have been possessed by the spirits of Ed Gein and Jeffrey Dahmer. Go for an exorcism.

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    • [Old Memory]
      2 years ago

      Or you can just try ocd meds.

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    • tomorrow_will_be_kinder
      2 years ago

      This made me laugh, thank you I needed this. My therapist has said i exhibit OCD tendencies so I'll look into that, I didn't know the two could be connected.

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  • Curiouskitten444
    2 years ago

    OCD. I have a similar issue, I'm on medication for it and that really truly reduces the intrusive thoughts. Also finding an outlet for the feelings like watching slasher horror movies. Although your thoughts are based in violence thay's actually not the problem, the problem is intrusive thoughts. There may however be a root cause aside from that like trauma/childhood abuse. I know it feels scary right now but getting help will greatly reduce this issue.
    Its awesome you reached out and there is help out there <3 good luck

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  • [Old Memory]
    2 years ago

    Do people actually believe these posts nowadays? Like, the wordings just scream cliche and they all sound the same.

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    • tomorrow_will_be_kinder
      2 years ago

      I tried to make it have good grammer 😅. But yeah unfortunately for me this is true I used to self harm to cope but now I do it to see the blood and how much I can bleed.

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      • [Old Memory]
        2 years ago

        Just out of curiosity, how old are you? Genuine question.

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