Is it normal to be obsessed with gore/mutilation/death against one's will?

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I struggle with obsessing over blood, gore, mutilation (of myself, i.e., sewing things into myself, cutting, biting), cannibalism, and death. I hate the thoughts, and I am unable to stop them. They scare the shit out of me, and I don't want to hurt anyone ever. I've always had an obsession with blood as a kid. It has just escalated beyond the point of being safe. I also watch death videos or look for gore pictures, and I have no idea why as I have a huge love and compassion for people. Thoughts of cannibalism scare the actual soul out of me, but it just appears in my head "bite a chunk out of an arm see the blood what would the taste be" "bone bone bone" "eat the leg," and every time those thoughts happen I cry. I had an issue today where I had an extreme urge to slit my throat to see the arteries squirt blood. I'm scared I'm going to hurt someone or kill myself someday with this obsession, but I can't stop the thoughts. I don't want them. I'm scared. I'm so worried; I don't want any of this. Is it normal?

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