Is it normal to be so afraid of letting someone down you let them down?
Specifically, I constantly have this thing with the internet where I join an online community and I make a bunch of friends (usually I do this when depressed or isolated, I'm an extrovert, so real-life activity always trumps these communities when I'm happy) but then I fall behind on keeping up with them, because.. life.
And then I am afraid of them being mad at me, and even more time passes. Or I'm just afraid of disappointing them. I don't know. So many people from so many games / websites / etc. have been like, really hurt, or they pretend like they're not upset but I can tell they are, and I feel really bad.
I'm terrible at keeping up and then I just get paralyzed and disappear from the community for ages and the longer it happens the more I want to avoid going back. Is it normal?