Is it normal to be tense all the time?

This may be only me but I have no doubt that we're all watched all time, that we're all figurines on a chess board for the fun of a few others, that we've been and still are being messed around.

We're only numbers, used and thrown away if there's no need for us anymore. They know where I am right now and they see what I do. They wait, think about what we do, decide if it's worth to scare the shit out of us and lock us up if we become a threat to their very will.

My guts aren't lieing. They are following, I know it. Watching when I enter my workplace. I wonder what they think. They're probably some bored 43-olds with a wife and some healthy kids that spend most of their daily hours at home playing online video games with their friends instead of exercising for school exams.
Why are they watching me anyway? I'm just the average office worker, doing what everyone else does, except that I know my colleagues aren't always following their schedule. Standing up to get a coffee and going for wees way to often, it is way too suspicious to be overseen.

What if suddenly their phone was recording their actions? They most likely wouldn't notice, indifferent where they are working, until it was too late. They're so naive. I wish I could join. However I see the cars, the men, smell their hair wax, sense their disgusting parfume or my mind is playing some dirty tricks on me. My therapist is thinking these are just some hallucinations but they are real, made of flesh and bone.