Is it normal to feel life is over before it began
I’m not even 20 yet, but I feel like the golden years/good times are over, and the only thing that lies ahead is sufferage and lonliness. I’ve never been in a relationship, and every time i’ve gotten close they all dump me and start making fun of me/taking me for granted. For fucks sakes, Ive battled alcoholism and suicidal tendencies (feats I know many wiser and older people can’t pull) and won before i’ve even made a significant romantic connection with someone. As soon as I hit 21-23 I know i’m gonna go from being a 5/10 to a 3. I only have two irl friends, and two internet friends that I feel im drifting away from anyway. I don’t know how to “put myself out there”, much less talk like a normal, functioning neurotypical member of society.
Has/does anybody feel this way? How do you get out of it? And obviously, is it normal to feel like my life is already over?