Is it normal to feel this way

I believe in a God,but I believe he's not entirely the God the christians believe in. I have a hard time believing that a man named Jesus really came. Nothing in the bible offends me at all. Not even the Jesus idea,I just don't believe. I've called out many of nights to Jesus and God,nothing came,and I hear these stories that christians tell me of God's power in there lives and how he's came to them. I believe no one is better than the next man and we all have problems and we should all try to accept them and get along. Maybe I have been brought to these beliefs through noticing my problems and others and by wanting to be accepted but why hasn't God showed himself to me if he's real,this is why I pay so much respect to nature,because it's something we didn't create and has always been with us. I believe God is a kind of a mother nature,because as far as we really know we become one with the earth. When I was trying the christian thing I was never fully accepted by the christians ever. I was often used as an example and was treated almost as if I were invisible at times.