Is it normal to feel this way now that i am 30?

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I am now 30 and realize some very marked differences in my life. First and foremost, I have spent my youth struggling by eking out a living and continuing my education. This culminated in many life experiences such as being a National Park Ranger, enlistment in the Army, going to a trade school, a community college, earning my B.Sc., and culminating now in law school.

I entered law school for certain reasons. Ideals-such as protection the environment (I plan to practice in environmental law)- and to support the family I was **going** to have. By that, I mean the lady I was **suppose** to marry left me because I was never there, never talked, and we grew apart. I suppose keeping my self afloat treading water academically and financially distracted me too much (as well as a very unfortunate upbringing). Not excuses . . . just facts that lead to why she was no longer willing to be a part of my life.

She was probably 50 percent the reason I went into law school. To set our **future** family up, to pay for our wedding (broke as joke now, why I did not get married earlier), and pay off her ungodly student loans (unfortunately, her earning potential is limited with the area she choose to study when compared to the 180k dollars of debt she incurred).

I am at a loss for why I am still in law school. I must finish now because of the debt incurred; but my prospects upon graduation do not look stellar. I no longer have a potential mate to start a family with, I will be 32 upon graduation, and the prospects of a newly minted attorney in this market being able to take the time to find that special someone is unlikely.

My youth was spent scrapping and scraping to get up in this world. Just trying to erase the memories of a childhood existence consisting of single wide trailers, power outages, no food, ecetera. That said, I do not know why I am here in school anymore. I feel isolated and alone. The people in law school do not necessary come from the same 'place in life' that I did and many could not relate.

Is it normal to feel lost, wandering the River Styx trying to find a purpose in life?

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  • thegypsysailor
    10 years ago

    It's probably a little late to tell you this now, but one should try to have a bit of fun in life, just to ease the pressure of the daily grind.
    I suppose you've learned your lesson (I hope so) about letting a loved one languish while you are engaged in "more important" things, so let's hope you don't do it next time around.
    Finish school and go forth and see what lies ahead, because what's behind is just that.

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    • LilyAmongTheThorns
      10 years ago

      You seem like an excellent person.

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  • Dad
    10 years ago

    You are 30

    National Park Ranger
    Enlistment in the Army
    Going to a trade school
    Earning your B.Sc.
    Fiance
    Still in law school
    Plan to practice in environmental law
    32 upon graduation!

    The people in law school do not necessary come from the same 'place in life' that you did?

    Well generally people don't start their life at 10. they just have FUN.
    Keep going if you want to be the big boss or a politician or something, but otherwise STOP and have fun, before its TOO late.

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  • tripw7
    10 years ago

    You are fine. You just have to finesse it now in the last two years of Law School. You will be just fine now that you don't have anyone holding you back.

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  • Wuggums47
    10 years ago

    You might think that you were meant to marry her, but isn't it better that things fell apart before you got married? If you drifted apart, then you weren't compatible. It's best you find these things out before you get married.

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  • thecowboy911
    10 years ago

    "Is it normal to feel lost, wandering the River Styx trying to find a purpose in life?"

    we all been there, totally normal

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  • kelili
    10 years ago

    It's always time to start afresh.

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  • ygrowup
    10 years ago

    Your about where you should be in life, for a person starting from where you started. The end of struggles is so near now, you should really apply yourself and finish what you started. It does get easier, and the way you there will go far in your future rewards. Good luck with your choices

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  • SEWnanist23
    10 years ago

    Learn The Gaelic languages, I wish I had when I was Younger.

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  • Mersaphe
    10 years ago

    All I gotta say sometimes you gotta stop dreamin and start livin

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  • Shnaz
    10 years ago

    It just takes time.

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  • Feh
    10 years ago

    You are at the perfect age. You've got life experience, and youthful energy. Don't measure your life against others, each is a different path with it's own qualities. In fact, I don't actually ever recommend measuring your life, that's like spinning your tires in the mud and not getting anywhere. Do things that make you feel proud of yourself, do things that make you feel good...as long as you can make your own happiness, nothing else matters. And, you'll be a much more attractive prospect for partners, friends and employers...it's a daunting task to feel you are responsible for another's happiness, as opposed to sharing and enhancing their happiness.

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  • KatieLiz
    10 years ago

    Don't worry. Work hard to get a good degree. The harder you work on it the happier you'll be with yourself. When you venture out into your line of work you will meet tonnes of new people, and who knows if one of them might just grow to be rather special to you.
    Just work hard and don't forget to socialise whenever you get the opportunity. You'll get there.

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  • handsignals
    10 years ago

    too long didn't read

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  • Johnnytherat
    10 years ago

    yo gurl likes it from da bacc bruh

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  • linchpin
    10 years ago

    For gods sake get it together man!

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