Is it normal to follow sports passionately?
I follow sports very closely as a so-called "hardcore fan". It's a very effective diversion from every day life and helps me to calm down at the end of a stressful day. But most times I watch my teams, I find myself screaming at the television as if my own words will affect the team's play. It's become such an issue that neighbors have come to my door or nervously ask me if everything's all right.
In other words, I am a fan of several sports teams that historically underachieve.
Following these teams is an emotional rollercoaster. The hope of a new season often begins with optimism but spirals into sadness and depression. The hateful taunting my teams get online (especially on Twitter) often makes matters worse. It painfully reminds me of the harassment I used to receive in school, so I take it more personally than I should.
In the last few years, my teams hired better staffing and players, creating a wave of optimism among the fanbase. All I want to do is laugh and berate everyone who once made fun of these teams once they start winning again.
I am often a respectful, humble person but I get so bent out of shape over my teams being called "losers" that part of me wants to boastfully tell people "our day will come" and "I told you so" once we do win a title. As if my words will ever affect it or make things better.
It's almost as if this is my version of an ego trip in spite of being a somewhat selfless and empathetic person outside of my sport allegiances.
I often see some of the awful, horrific things fans do in the name of sport. After one game I attended, a fan of the losing team blindsided a fan of the winning team simply for wearing an opposing jersey and punched him multiple times until he bled. The losing fan was eventually pursued and caught by security. It is a moment that, years later, still shocks me. It made me wonder if this whole "sports thing" is worth it if people have to be that way.
Should I tone it down and stop being this passionate about sports? I'm starting to get tired of having millionaires' inconsistent performances affect my life. I certainly don't want my sports hobby to affect any relationships because of some deep-rooted angst I take way too personally.