Is it normal to get turned on by this...?
So I have always been turned on by the thought of having my life be ruined or of working really hard on something and then just destroying it. Like I'll spend hours drawing a picture and then just erase it, I'll bake a beautiful cake, and then just crush it by sitting on it, I even bought an expensive dress the other day which I wore and then tore it up with scissors. Doing this kind of thing gives me a thrill. Sometimes the thought of doing this to others turns me on, but mainly I get off to it happening to me. Is it normal?