Is it normal to just want to dissapear?
People are complicated, feelings are complicated, this society is complicated, getting a job is hard, becoming successful is hard, pleasing your parents is hard, pleasing others is hard, finding meaning is hard, dealing with your own feelings is hard, the thought that my future is bleak hurts, I'm gonna die without anybody even noticing, nobody at the funeral, there wouldn't even be a funeral since nobody would be there, I'm gonna die lonely, frankly nobody cares and that's understandable. I just want to disappear and not deal with this shit.