Is it normal to live your life like a prisom?
My life sucks. They dont allow me to have a boyfriend. Im not allowed to sleep overnight with my friends and not allowed to drink with them even if they're all girls. I live by their rules. Im not being myself. Im being what they want me to be. If I disobeyed them I become abused physically but that was before from little girl to the age of 12. My mom stop hurting me when I told to one of my friend that "my mom almost killed me". My mom accidentally read it and cry and abracadabra she doesnt hurt me anymore. But sometimes she just shout at me when shes angry. The sad part is im scared of her, and I think simple mistake will make her angry. When someone is shouting at someone even if its not me, it makes my heart beat so fast and I feel so afraid. There are lot of things I cant do. They choose my own profession. So life is kind of boring to me. Im 19 for god sake.....