Is it normal to not understand humans?
To say that I have autism, would be an understatement. There is something wrong and I don't understand. Humans terrify me, I don't understand them. I've made various efforts throughout my life to understand them but I'm coming to the realization that I can't.
I feel like Im watching a nature documentary 24/7 in attempt to understand why they do various thing with a short list of examples being:
why do they have sex? get married? say things they don't mean, never can give straight answers, why do they form bonds, why do they insist on having friendships, why are they so goddam emotional when there is 0 reason to be, why do they believe in such delusional shit even when proven 1000% wrong?
I can understand things from a biological/evolutionary aspect but not from a "human" aspect. The only reason why I give a fuck to begin with is that they feel the need to hurt me, are everywhere, and Im forced to be around them for survival.
I used to think that this wasn't a me only thing. I used to think everyone was like this but just kept it to themselves but now this is clearly not the case. I don't know how normal this is? Even other people with autism seem to yearn for a lot of human things.