Is it normal to resent people for avoiding me even though they should?

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I'm not going to beat around the bush. I have BPD with sociopathic tendencies, I am a horrible person and I negatively affect virtually everyone I get involved with. People generally avoid me but I often think "they should at least get to know me before passing judgement" even though they definitely should not get to know me since it will likely turn out badly for them.

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  • Lies
    8 years ago

    Lol I love this story.

    I recommend getting therapy to work on this problem.

    People aren't going to be friendly when you seem weird or give out a creepy vibe, not saying that's you at all.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I've been told I look intimidating.

      I don't particularly want people to be friendly and I do take advantage of my "psycho" vibe often. Therapy is a possibility but I explained to Rosie in another comment how it is a daunting thought.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    You sound like you should be living in an institution, not out in society. In there you would probably not have that problem. Everybody would be quite comfortable in your company.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I don't want company. Where did you get that idea from?

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      • thegypsysailor
        8 years ago

        From your responses, I get the distinct impression you have no idea in the world WHAT you want.
        At least in an institution you couldn't hurt others, or yourself.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          8 years ago

          Yes, due to my disorders, if I am honest, I do not know who the "real me" is.

          I am certainly not dangerous enough to warrant institutionalization. The state of mental health care is bad enough and there are people far worse off than me that need what little space is available way more than I do.

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          • BlueAlice
            1 year ago

            I am going to gently and kindly ask you some questions so we can find out about you.

            When was the first time you felt something was wrong? That could be the first time you chose to have BPD.

            Why do you claim you don't have an identity or don't know what you want when you do know? You know you chose to have BPD and you know you chose to be a sociopath.

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  • PurplePanda
    8 years ago

    No comment even though I am commenting

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  • bigol'dick
    8 years ago

    Sometimes I get really hurt or angry about people forgetting about me because I never really put much effort into our friendship. Humans are naturally selfish to a certain extent.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      I am extremely selfish. That probably explains it.

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    It's normal in that we all have feelings, and especially people with Borderline personality disorder tend to feel their feelings much more strongly than others. Borderline personality disorder is also known as EID, Emotional Intensity Disorder. I don't know anything about the sociopathic tendencies, but that certainly doesn't sound very good.

    Please try to remember that feelings aren't facts, and that just because you think or feel something doesn't necessarily make it true or real. People with Borderline personality Disorder tend to be sensitive to their own adrenaline so keep that in mind. Logic and reason would dictate that people wouldn't want to spend much time with someone who's troublesome and treats them badly.

    I highly recommend that you find someone who specializes in treating BPD, especially if they use a type of cognitive behavioral therapy known as Dialectic Behavioral Therapy.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      8 years ago

      On one hand I'd like to get therapy if only so that I can gain stability and independence. On the other hand, I am so lost and empty inside, I have no idea who I am. I don't know if there is a real person inside of me. I don't know what feelings and desires are real, if any, because I am acting all the time and often when I recall events or emotional outbursts I see it as happening in a different dimension or lifetime. I don't know how to describe it very well. I suppose I am saying I have no substance that I can discern.

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      • RoseIsabella
        8 years ago

        Wow! Yeah, don't wait to get therapy.

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