Is it normal to smoke as much as i am?
I have been exploring the very real possibility that I’m becoming addicted to marijuana. I was introduced to it around 2018 (currently 21) during my first semester at University and found it medicinal and relaxing ever since. I assumed I would wean myself off from it over time but I’ve managed to smoke much more than I anticipated. I’m feeling as though rehab isn’t necessary (as it’s a bit scary considering I live with my mom and currently don’t have insurance). Some benefits of smoking include mental and physical relaxation, constant laughter, and enjoyment of time alone, and euphoria. Cons are that sometimes my lungs ache, I lack motivation, I don’t have many interests and most times I smoke so much I force myself to get tired of it. Overall it seems to help with my depression but it’s definitely not the solution. I think it makes me dissociate from everyday life which could be lessening the quality of my mental state. It helps with boredom but I would much rather read a book or something. I also think this really dumb pandemic had been affecting me in a way that I haven’t realized until now. Kind of sucks. Anyway, I’d love any advice on how to balance myself or get myself motivated to stop. Thanks for everything in advance!! :-)