Is it normal to want attention, even if it's bad attention?
I seem to like attention. This is usually evident when I'm in big groups. But I don't deny being alone and daydreaming about attracting attention. This could also be over stupid things that don't give off a good impression.
Like finding a big cardboard box in public, wearing it, and running until I fall and start rolling. It's funny in a way, but it's not who I want to be. When I do weird weird things that grab people's attention, I feel like at home. This is visible in my style of dressing up, my behavior, the way in which I talk and so on. Wanting attention sometimes even decides my hobbies.
The contradictory bit is that I HATE getting positive attention for tiny accomplishments here and there. Even though I would be more comfortable if I was the one talking about it. But really, attention over stupid things makes me happier for that moment.