Is it normal to want to be beaten sometimes?
I want to be beaten sometimes, but only with blunt things like hands and sticks, and not on the face or head (too much risk of visible and brain damage). I don't care much for being hit in the soft torso, so limbs, neck, back and ribs would be best.
I was watching the scene of the Passion of the Christ a while ago, and thought while they beat him with sticks, how perfect it might be if I could be beaten like that, and how good it might feel for me.
No sacrilege intended. I wasn't really interested in being whipped, however, and definitely not with the pronged ones that they used on him.
When I'm stressed, angry or anxious, I have to resist the urge to lash out, destroy objects, and smack myself hard on the head 3-6 times with a fist, as used to be my custom before the mild headaches and risk on brain damage began to worry me more.