Is it normal to wish i was religious

I'm exactly the same. I used to be religious up until my early teens when i stared to have doubts about it. I started to do some research and self reflection, searching for answers and justification for a concept that started to lose credibility as time went by. 2 years later i lost my faith all together. The staggering proof and indications were too overwhelming. I felt enlightened. But, of course, every revelation comes with a lot of afterthoughts and conclusions. It puts a negative light on all previous delusions, making reality seem more dark and palpable. You start to see things for what they really are. It was a frightening experience. The realization that you only have yourself and every surrounding element is just a temporary shield that will fade in time.

I wish i could go back to being naive and impressionable. Ignorance really is bliss.

No. Why would someone want to follow beliefs made by people who try to control others?

Not at all. In fact, I'm scared that one day I'd have a stroke and wake up and start talking about gods and miracles as if there's nothing abnormal about it.

You say you wish to be deluded into firmly thinking there's a creator who's comforting, but wouldn't that come with a lot of baggage? If you go with the "personal god" thing, then you'd be pretty much completely alone with the idea; no one to share it with. If you go with popular religions, most are immoral and you'd have to force yourself to reject most of the holy book for it to be "comforting."

Moreover, you'd likely tend to be overly confident in yourself or fail to seek out solutions to problems, thinking your imaginary friend would solve them for you. I see the benign "Jesus-take-the-wheel" type of posts on Facebook all the time, but of course, there are more pernicious beliefs that lead to people trying to pray away easily-treatable illnesses rather than seeking medical attention, and then dying from them, or even bombing busses and buildings, thinking that's the easy way to go to heaven.

But what exactly do you want to be comforted about? Wouldn't a group of trusted friends that actually exist and can advise or help you be better for that purpose?

To answer the original question, no I don't think this is normal. It sounds like you haven't really thought about religion or any of the circular and ill-founded pro-religion arguments that theists often try to pass off. For religion to really work, you have to abandon at least part of your logical being, part of your intelligence (in fact, there's a verse specifically advising that in the Bible).

Reality is better than delusion, my friend. Keep using your brain and stay away from religion.

This is an incomplete comment. I wrote it last week, but I never finished it because the ideas are difficult for me to frame. I'm not finishing it because I don't know how, so it is not perfect. But here it is:

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I feel the same way. Religion is powerful because it satisfies a lot of very common human needs, but I figure you can get the same satisfaction in other ways. This comment is about what helped me. It might help you, or it might not. I'm afraid it involves doing a lot of hard thinking :P

I think what you need to do is isolate what precisely it is about religion that you wish you had. Security might be one aspect, but go deeper than that. What exact kind of security? Are you afraid of death? Afraid of failing to accomplish your material goals? Of being hurt emotionally? Something else? And why don't you feel secure already? Are you asking too much? Are you lacking security other places in your everyday life? Define what "security" means to you as clearly as you can.

This is a rough list of things I wish I had about religion: security, community, moral leadership and guidance, a sense of purpose, a feeling of being part of something bigger than yourself which cares about you, tradition, the trust of faith, and the romance of the supernatural. You can write out your own list if that's helpful for you. Think of them as itches you need to scratch. Then, go deeper into each one. Think about exactly what it is about you wish you had. The more you think about what you want, the more you'll be able to find a way to get it.

I could scratch most of my itches fairly easily by changing the way I think. Inventing a new sense of purpose is no harder than shopping around for a religion.

TL;DR: read philosophy.

You can.

I talk to Satan all the time, I don't follow any actual religion.

Why don't you take a look into Buddhism. I've been practicing it. Anyone of any belief can practice it if they want and incorporate it in with those beliefs. It instills good teachings to live by.

Generally speaking, many non-religous people wish for the same spiritual comfort but lack the mentality to seek it or embrace it.

I recommend to you to study different religions. Their rhetoric may be pursuasive enough to you to embrace the comfort of a deity. Buddhism may be a good start. It ascribed to the ideology of being a good person and embracing the words of prophets such as Jesus Christ and Buddha while not heavily dogmatic or restrictive.