Im just ranting to god
I just question so much about if you are real or not I mean everyone does. Why must I be who I am why can't you help me, everyone is religious around me and I just don't know what to believe in anymore, I mean if someone asks I say Christian but, how could I be if I am having so much trouble believing in whatever is up there. I have heard people see the signs but I am so fucking clueless, just help me I just want a fucking sign, I have tried time and time again and I read/was always told as long as I tried my best you would be there to help me but you're not, so what the hell am I suppose to do. You know why I call out to you, I don't know what to believe anymore, I just am starting to think I am done with you for a while. Maybe one day I will be able to bring faith back into you again like how I use to when I was little but right now, you have not given me a chance and I'm so tired of people saying just wait it's not your time, then when the hell is it my time huh god, I just want to know you or an Angel or something good is here with me, please