Imaginary friends =/= god
I am a 30 y/o disabled woman and care home resident. Since I was young I've formed imaginary bonds mostly w/ musicians, but sometimes w/ TV or song characters, mostly fantasy ones, who I’m fully aware I either don't actually know/are not real.They give me advice, comfort me, etc. I can see myself doing this for my whole life. I see them as friends & when the mood takes me, lovers.
I dreamed of one. She came to me in the blue-black night to ask how I was getting on, told me in no uncertain terms -- complete w/ wagging finger -- why my life had to change & w/ a smile that melted my bones she told me however bad things get I still have ________ [band name], & when I had need to whisper her name 3x.
I doubt I have a friend/family member who doesn't know I do this, or at least see it as something I might do. People don't seem to avoid me, & I get on w/ most people, even though I’ve spent half my life thinking I’m not well-liked.
When I tried to live w/o said outlet I did indeed manage – so I know I can – , but managing/existing doesn't = living. I was so unhappy I gave in & opened it back up again.
People believe in God, but he can't be seen , heard etc. either; neither can saints, angels, spirit guides etc. that lots of people seem to truly believe in. So why shouldn't I do what I do? I've never seen any difference.