Is he lying to me?
so i got this “burn after writing” book for my bf and i. there was this question asking who was your first love. we weren’t showing each other our answers bc the book kinda says not too. but later i asked “who’d you say for first love? me?” (because he always has said i am his first love) & he said “yeah babe” for some reason after that he went to the end of the counter and was writing stuff idk why bc at first we were sitting next to each other.
i had a weird feeling about the question idk why. later we got high and he was in the bathroom and i wanted to see what he wrote for it and there was nothing there. all the questions were filled like 15 of them and “first love” was like 10 or 11. he didn’t write my name it wasn’t filled out. i tried to let it go but it was rly bothering me, i was literally shaking and then i came clean and told him i looked in the book.
his excuse was “i was just doing it at a random order and i forgot to answer that one” and then he went on to write it right in front of me. but the thing is i asked him did you write my name and he said yes. he went on to say that he just must of forgot and realized and wanted to write it later. does this make sense? it made me rly sad because to me it’s either i wasn’t his first love and he just didn’t want to write the girls name down, or because he feels he hasn’t had one yet or maybe doesn’t know? idk he keeps saying i was his first and he got pretty upset and bummed on himself and now he’s just kinda mad bc i’m still sad about it.
i just wanna know your perspective