Is is normal to hate when people love you and love when people hate you
I've been feeling this way for 5 years or so...
You see I like ruining relationships and friendships I have with others so that they either stop talking to me or so that they physically or emotionally hurt me. I hate it when people love/care about me because I don't feel like I deserve care. I deserve and thrive off of hate. Even if it ruins my emotional state.