Is it alright if i have the urges to eat people, cook them, and eat them?

Lately, for the past year, I've had a pushed back urge to cook and eat certain people I like and dislike. Obviously I'd never do it because eating people is illegal if you made the meat yourself. It's really only for specific people most of the time that I want to eat, like people I love or dislike, but sometimes I just want to eat someone, not really mattering who they are. I would, like, chop them up, cook them, and put them in like a stew or meat pie. Like, I want to taste human meat pretty bad, and would likely end up buying an arm or something in the future. I don't know, man.