Is it dangerous that i may be addicted to self harm?

I've been doing it for 6-7 years now, and I have a huge amount of small scars, none too deep. But I feel like every time I stop hurting myself, I get sick. I start to feel itchy and my arms ache and it becomes all I can think about, and every time I relapse it's worse than the time before. Over the past year I've been scarring more deeply and visibly because each relapse pushes me to go deeper. I'm worried that I'll go too far, but I'm also terrified of quitting. I've been clean for 2 months and its all I can think about and I don't know what to do.

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  • xxLucifer

    Yes it is quite a bit dangerous. You are even worried you might go to far. You need to seek professional help before you do go to far and end up having to go to a hospital or worse.

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    • sillygirl77

      Agree with this advice

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  • RoseIsabella

    That's actually a sign of Borderline of Personality Disorder.

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  • tigron

    Geez, it's called self *HARM* for a reason

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  • Hiddenite

    hey, i used to suffer from this too. i used to do it every single day for almost a year, it was chaos.
    if you want genuine advice? you've caught yourself in a never-ending loop, so you have to go cold-turkey. completely stop. it's difficult, but pretty soon after completely stopping, your urges give up. you just forget about it. nowadays? blood cringes me out a little bit. yeah, sometimes i relapse a tiny bit. but it's nowhere near the damage i was causing to myself back then, and the relapses are extremely rare.

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  • panter411

    Sounds like a weird addiction, but I would suggest you see if you can find someone more aducated to talk about it, or see with these reddits:
    https://www.reddit.com/r/selfharm/ (seem to be centerd around selfharm and not really a helping hand)
    https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/ (seem to be centered around helping people with selfharm and suicidedal tendencies)
    https://www.reddit.com/r/Cutters/ (seems to be focused on helping and supporting people that do cutting)

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  • paramore93

    Sounds ridiculous but have you tried writing/drawing all over your arms?

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