Is it normal? because to me is not
i hate myself so much because my stomach hurt and looks like i'm pregnant it feels weird like something is in there, i have been farting alots but not pooping also i have long periods of time so I want to the doctor but she only said your stressed. i overeat then throw up, and not eat for few days. i feel disgusting I don't know want to do anymore and don't know how to bring this up but you're the first person I'm telling this,my problem is Putting my Finger up my Anus to Poop. I must use my fingers and put my anus to get rid of poo. i have been doing this for i can't remember how long maybe two years and now i'm totally freaking out that it will be impossible for me to go properly ever again. (I even try not to do it for a week but no poop at all) for one i wish i never started it controls my life. i have tried stopping but my body just doesnt push the waste down into where is should be anymore it just sits up inside me so i feel like i have to put my fingers up and I don't know how to tell this to my doctor or anyone I don't know how to bring it up I hope I don't get any diseases because I'm doing this please help me any advice will be very helpful and I am ready to change I am sick and tired of this please I will do anything to get rid of this problem."I'm struggling to have normal bowel movements without assistance it's impossible for me to go properly. my body just doesnt push the waste down into where is should be anymore. Any suggestions for things to use to make it easier?"☹😓😭😢😔