Is it normal i can't leave my room.
I can't leave my room. I am afraid of being around people. Last night I woke up around 9PM having to pee badly. My roommate and her family were here and if I went to the bathroom they'd notice me so I held it for 2/3 hours (fell asleep for the last hour) until I thought they were sleeping. I was so afraid of leaving my room that I was thinking about peeing in an empty cup rather than sucking it up and going to the bathroom.
I plan out the times I leave my room to go to class or get something to eat. If I want to make something to eat I either do it in the morning on certain days I know my roommates aren't home or likely to be around or I do it late at night (2AM, 3AM for example). I sneak out of my room to grab a snack and if I hear a door open I run back to my room in fear. I'll stand by the door listening to see if anyone is around before I go to use the bathroom or leave the apartment. Sometimes I'm too afraid to leave because I don't want to be seen so end up skipping class even though I don't want to.
I don't want to be around people. I ignore phone calls from everyone I know. I avoid eye contact with everyone. Being around anyone or having to talk to anyone makes me uncomfortable.