Is it normal i'd rather die than go to a gyno

Just think of it this way: looking at 'cooters' is their job!
They're not gunna talk amongst their staff and say, "omg, __________ has the weirdest pussy I've ever seen!" They look at a whole bunch of them every day.
You shouldn't let it bother you. They're doctors. They see all kinds of stuff. They've seen all sorts of STD's and such, and if they're also an obstetrician, they've also seen many babies come out of those, which is horrid.
Put your health first! Good luck!

I can't imagine a stronger motivator than fearing cancer...

Are you a good actress? All you have to do is play a part in a movie for 30 minutes. Your role is someone who doesn't give a shit. Schedule your appointment, and get in character. Don't worry, it's not YOU that's going, and it's just a movie - they won't show anything. You're the confident female lead that thinks it's as normal as checking your watch.

Well, that's my advice. If that doesn't work, quit being such a PUSSY (bahahaha!) and go do it. You don't want to die because of a crippling shame of your own body, do you? But... I'd try the movie bit. Faking confidence works for me.

Oh please. Stop being so childish. Go see a female - at least you know she has the same bits that you do and you won't feel so weird about it.

I personally am never going to one. Just the thought of it makes me want to vomit.

if it's cancer then burying your head in the sand will just help you die faster.

sounds like you're afraid to know the truth of what's going on with your body.

and that's natural... but it will cost you more in the long run

I'm sure they've seen worse. You worry about this and you don't worry when you're having sex? Go get checked!

live fast, die young

If something might be wrong with you, you can't just ignore it. The gyno isn't that bad. I go to a female gyno and she's very nice, and I don't feel too awkward since she's the same gender and knows what I'm talking about. Plus I feel more relaxed if I have a nice doctor. Hopefully whoever you go to is nice too. If they stick something in your vag it's a bit uncomfortable, but just relax and it's not that bad. Good luck.

You should care. You don't want to end up with a serious illness. I advice you to go to a doctor. I used to be like this when I was younger until I realized that I needed to go and make sure everything was working right down there. There's nothing you should be afraid of, they can actually help and give you useful tips.