Is it normal i feel like i'm a 'peter pan'?
As in, I'm never going to grow up? To be honest I don't want to. I want to work with kids partially so I can still ACT like a kid but being able to pull money on a decent job, too.
I also look for, in a partner, someone else who's immature, or at least like childlike antics. (Humbert? Holden? Oh no.)
I went to Walmart recently and I was TEMPTED to buy this doll-type thing (no idea what it's called, but it was basically like one of those Barbie or Bratz dolls, I don't know, it looked like an alien) and I REALLY wanted to buy it. But I decided against it, as I have nowhere to put it.
I also REALLY want to go to Build-A-Bear and make something new, as well as get clothes for my old stuffed animals I recently re-found. (They have fucking llama toys, I must have it).
If I knew anyone else felt like me, I'd be playing "imaginary" with dolls and the houses and shit, partially the reason I want some type of job working with kids.
I mean, is something wrong with me? I also have a number of paraphilias (I'm using this delicately here), one of them being an adult baby type thing. I hate myself, I know, and I'll never tell anybody ('cept for you internet people of course) and fuck.
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.