Is it normal i have the urge to hit my pets?
I have a cat and a dog. I got the cat when I was a little kid. Back then I'd hit him, and abuse him, and come up with different ways too. And I was only 8. Even with my first cat I did that. And I was under 8.
I grew into a teenager..and kept doing it.. Now we have a dog. And at first I was scared of him, because I had a dog bite me when I was little, and then I got use to him. I like to annoy him, and when he shows me his teeth, I get pissed off, and smack his head. I feel horrible afterwords. And I feel way worse for my cat. He had to go through that for years! His whole damn life!
It's just they're so cute I love to annoy them and have the urge to hit them... And I really hate this. I don't want to hear "you're a bad person" I kind of noticed -_-
I know I shouldn't have pets when I grow up, and I wonder if maybe these feelings will go away when I'm on my own. But it's going to really fucking suck, because I always wanted pets. Is there a way to fix this urge? I'm too scared to tell anyone. And I feel really bad for my pets. And I don't know why do I do these things, it scares me..
Please no hateful comments, I just want some advice on how to control myself.