Is it normal i'm back in grade nine

The first time was bad enough, but it wasn't horrible like I wanted. This time i went back and found out I can't rape and date women. I also got thrown down cringy, unstable wooden steps by my raging cocaine huffing,bipolar dad. I'm now in a cast eating sardines. I cry myself to sleep while listenig to Drake. I slapped a kid for no reason and said he punched my raw nuts with his tongue so i got revenge. I cringe daily and pick my nose. I hate my parents because they tried to sell me on Ebay.