Is it normal i'm like this?

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I used to be abused since I was 9 but now I'm not. Because I was so young when it started, I forgot what it was like before my abuse. Here's what I'm like now:

-I have a sleep paralysis which causes horrifying nightmares while I'm still awake (hallucinations).
-I hallucinate about a 'demon' who appears to be in charge of other hallucinations.
-I panic like crazy when I make even the smallest mistake.
-I hear voices yelling at me whenever I panic.
-I cry myself to sleep.
-I am extremely depressed, sometimes I'll be depressed for entire days.
-I can't stop thinking about how much I was abused.
-Suicidal thoughts are normal for me, I have them every day.
-I lose control when I'm put in danger and can hurt people very badly. Luckily, I'm not in danger often. This has only happened twice since I escaped the abuse.

Is this stuff normal?

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48% Normal
Based on 23 votes (11 yes)
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  • Short4Words
    8 years ago

    After reading your last few posts it's obvious you need some therapy. That's not me saying you're crazy just that you need some help. Trust me it'll be the best thing you ever did.

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  • durpy.50
    8 years ago

    welcome to the club man but go seek therapy

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  • RoseIsabella
    8 years ago

    I think you need professional help, my dear. Additionally I would like you to consider pressing criminal charges against your abuser if the statute of limitations hasn't run out yet. Also you can sue your abuser in civil court for the pain and suffering you've had to endure as a result of the abuse which in turn can help to pay more some of the therapy you need.

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  • Ellenna
    8 years ago

    I agree 100%

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