Is it normal i think i’m going crazy
I’m 23, I’m a male, and I’m writing this while sobbing like the bitch I am these days. I think I’m going fucking crazy and I can’t tell anybody about it.
I started hearing things two years ago, just snide remarks or insults when out in public or around a lot of people. Just my fucking brain telling me everybody hates me or that I’m embarrassing myself or some dumb shit. “Who invited you?” “Why are you here?” “What’d you do that for?” “Why are you making that face?” “Why are you so nervous?”
Now I fucking see them, I see these fuckers saying their shit to me, telling me to follow them somewhere to fight, trying to make me go with them, I can’t call them out because when I do my girlfriend thinks I’m crazy, maybe I am? My dad was crazy, his dad was crazy, maybe I’m fucking crazy right?
I don’t want therapy, I don’t like medicine, but if I’m crazy I need it. I just can’t have anybody knowing I’m crazy. Is that crazy?