Is it normal i think if the world disappeared i wouldn't really mind?
Is it normal I think if everyone in the world just disappeared on day I wouldn't mind one bit? People are so emotional and annoying and I just cant even fit in. When I argue something since I think it made logical sense I am told I am a cunt, dick, worthless heartless creature that needs to burn in the pits of hell.
Sometimes I wish I could just be alone forever and everyone would die of some disease. I wouldn't even open the door when someone came begging for help. If everyone just died and I was alone but still with electricity and able to scavenge food I think I would be at peace.
I cant deal with people and their bull shit anymore. Sick of being told I need to cry at every tragedy in the world. That I need to beg on my feet for forgiveness when I offend someone. To be told im bad for not following another persons opinion.
I wish the world was just robots. They wouldn't argue some emotional point. They would only do what they see necessary and they would not bother me. I would be at peace knowing I was alone and every human in the world was gone. I cant change anymore but I always have to for someone and I think I have much more peace of mind just being the insanely flawed person I am.
Tired of people telling me I am worthless and wanting me to help them. Tired of people using me or connection to me to make themselves look impressive. Sick and tired of knowing that every person you know will leave or betray you. So I wonder why I need anyone at all. Im alone anyways. Why cant it be real? Why do these people need to be here to toy with me. I care not for anyone else anymore. No one cares about me so why does anyone deserve my sympathy?