Is it normal i want my mom to breast or bottle feed me

This might be weird to some people, but please don’t be mean.

I fantasize a lot about my mom breast feeding me. I imagine being wrapped in a blanket completely warm and safe and drinking her warm milk until I fall asleep. It’s strange though because I’ve never actually been breastfed on her. I wasn’t with her as a baby and as a toddler I wasn’t even being bottle fed anymore. Ive asked her before if she would do it but she always says no and gets mad. She thinks it’s inappropriate but I really don’t feel that way about it.

A few months ago she finally caved to let me bottle feed but said she would only let me do it up to once a week, but now she’s saying no to that too and I feel very alone. I know it’s not normal being teenager to feel this way but I just crave it really really bad. Even if she would just spoon feed me I’d feel better. I feel like an attention whore because I’m always so needy. Does anyone else get me?