Is it normal my pets death made me very depressed?
My budgie died two days ago, I just found him laying there on the bottom of his cage. He's lived with me for around three years, I know usually people will feel sad and just move on but to me it's like my own baby died.
I've been crying all day and even mentioning him is making me cry right now. I loved him so much, I never expected this to happen especially since he was only around 3 years old. I hate my life and if there is a god out there it's a sadistic cunt of a god and I hate him or whatever thought this was okay. I feel like life is worthless because as you go on in life more and more things get taken from you. The only reason I haven't tried to hang myself is because I have another bird to care for as well as my family because they rely on me.
I hate myself and I'm a terrible person and I shouldn't live because I never deserved to.