Is it normal negativity towards blacks makes me not want to be black

I'm very sorry you've had to go through that. In my experience, most people do not think of black people in any negative way. If it's at all possible I really think you should try and move to a different place, because I don't think your experience has been normal and it can get better if you live somewhere else.

P.S. I wouldn't listen to True.

where do you live? you need to move!!! i'm black but i never started seeing a problem with anything of that nature til i moved to this little town in california a couple years ago. before that i was born and raised in las vegas its extremely multi-cultured there. it's really about your location 'cause there's still a lot of places that are closed minded and already have their opinion set on the black community, no matter how opposite you are to the stereotypes

Did you just term your hair as shitty?

Sweetheart... who did it and when did it begin?

Don't ever hate yourself. Ever.

We were raised in a society that sometimes subtly and sometimes outright demeaned us and made us feel inferior.

(You don't understand unless you grew up black, or another racial minority in the United States so please do not go around trying to deny this. It has nothing to do with you.)

The black culture is powerful, and beautiful. So powerful that when we're proud of our skin color, and history, the FBI calls us "Black supremacists, or militants." This society is more comfortable with us hating ourselves, because they wouldn't know how to handle us otherwise. Why do you think people try to make the Black Panthers seem like a joke, or Stokely Carmichael seem like a fundametalist when it reality they were far from it?

We become stronger people because of this. Stand up, never down. And never apologize!!!!!

EVER. If people want to generalize more than a billion people, that alone should explain their level of intelligence. Don't waste your time.

Black hair in its variety of textures is beautiful, and nothing can compare to it. Yes, black women can have beautifully long hair with natural curls of different textures. NATURALLY.

Mansa Musa of Mali, a BLACK king was and still is to this day the richest man in the world.. and he lived Centuries ago.

Black really is beautiful... have confidence in yourself. You just have to educate yourself about your history, and what being black means. You might just be surprised :p

For someone who purports to be a pretty smart cookie, you seem to be letting all sorts of outside influences affect your own self image.
Allowing yourself to be brainwashed by the lesser creatures around you is foolish and self destructive.
I'm guessing you have a bit of time yet left in school, but after that, you should be able to figure out where you can find a comfortable spot in this world. So keep strong until then and charge forth thereafter as the ebony princess you choose to be.

I'm black. I feel hurt by the way we get treated sometimes. But know that not everyone treats us that way. People raise there kids wrong or people get influinfluenced wrong and that causes them to be racist or think blacks are all the same. Don't ever be ashamed of your ethnicity. You are who you are and be proud. Trash comes in every color but, the media doesn't show that. There are a LOT of racist people and the media does whatever society will be pleased by and sadly the black stereotype is one if the entertaining things. Some black people even believe that they are supposed to act the way that we are being portrayed. Just don't be ashamed of yourself. Represent and remember that trash comes in every color. A long time ago when racism was really bad people felt the same way as you did. Young black girls wanted to be white because they were told that they are bad because of their skin color. I always remember not to let my skin color define me. And you shouldn't feel the need to want to be another skin color. Don't worry about the people who think skin color defines a person because it's just ignorance.

I am honestly so, so sorry for what you've had to go through. No one deserves to be treated the way you are. I know so many amazing blacks who are well-educated, good-looking, and have never done what society thinks that all blacks do. It is NOT ok to stereotype a race. I, myself, have been the victim of racism as I am Asian. Our society is pretty much fucked up beyond belief. But NEVER let the way someone portrays you put down your belief in yourself. You are amazing, you know you are amazing, ACT like you know it. Keep your natural hair, stun them not with your looks but with your speaking abilities, your resume, the way you hold yourself. I doubt racism will ever truly stop, but you can greatly alter the way society views you.

I'm very touched by your post. It makes me so sad. I'm black but I live in a country where most people are just like me. I have lived in a country where I have experienced what it means to be a victim of racism but I'm home and okay now.

I really don't have an advice to give you but I wanted you to know that I have read your post and that (it's stupid to say that, but I can't help it) I'm with you.

I feel really bad for you. I'm Australian but I grew up white in a poor area and experienced a lot of racist violence and bullying from black native people I went to school with. But it was different for me because when I left school I was the majority again, I was mostly safe from their violence and racism, I don't know what it would have done to me if it had of continued my whole life.

Still I think you have to do your best to make peace with these things for your own quality of life.

To be fair there are versions of chimpout . Com that target white people with posts by black people. Nation of Islam forums and black Hebrew forums, and similar refer to white people as demons created by satanic forces.

Aside from that I am very sorry you feel that way.

Do not give in, do not falter, be proud. People who say blacks do not experience this are not black and therefore live with their white or other privilege for the rest of their days. All the things you listed are accurate depictions of how unfair it is to be black. It does not matter how well mannered you are, what you're good at and how much of an optimist you are, you will NEVER be considered on the same footing as another race. People will throw all the negative things they can at black people to keep them down thanks to history and society but every question they ask is actually the opposite.

"Why do black people commit crimes", because other races do worse but they try to keep it hidden and advertise only black people hurting others when other races do much, much worse than blacks would ever get away with or bother to do. "Why are black females so ugly", because they are trying to advertise themselves as the best while black females enviously have more options for hairstyles and have a much higher chance of a sexier body shape and tone. "Why are black people less intelligent", because black people have invented many everyday things that history books and schools will not teach you to ever remind you of this.

Not enough people understand how real this is because they don't live as a black person and it is unfair. Thats right, I too have been called more "white" to my face as if anyone white understands what it means to be black and as if not acting ghetto or hood is a white only thing. Martin Luther King wasn't hood, was he acting white? It doesn't happen everyday but when it does, and it will, you'll understand. I am willing to talk outside of IIN if you need to OP because you aren't alone.

I'm not saying racism doesn't exist and that you haven't experienced it first hand. But if the hatred of black people is as widespread as you perceive it to be, then how is Barack Obama president of the US?

Self pity will get you nowhere. You're black. You have a black president. There is no reason or excuse to be ashamed of your skin colour or your hair.

The negativity was earned over decades. Time to earn a positive reputation.

I guess it depends where you live. I grew up in Flint, Mi in a very diverse neighborhood. Black, white, Hispanic, Asians all got along. I do remember our parents marveling at how we all got a long. I didn't understand it as a child but as I got older I saw the nastiness of the world. Your post actually made me sad! EVERYONE is beautiful! Be proud of "who" you are and dismiss those that are racist. Until we stand together we will continue to have race issues. All sides have there points which are accurate. This in of itself causes problems because no one wants to admit to there issues. Until we can all honestly look at ourselves and change there will be no change. Anyways God Bless you! I truly hope you can realize that you are beautiful and loved. Not everyone is going to like you or be nice to you! So what! Kill them with kindness (I realize this is easier said than done most times). To address the whole white standard thing is obvious. America was founded by white people and white people are still the majority. If I go to Africa I am in a black culture, if I go to Asia I am in an Asian culture, if I go to Mexico I am in a Hispanic culture. I am a conservative Christian white male btw.

Respectfully, I do not adhere to the necessity of an inferiority complex because of the color of my skin. I think it depends on who is looking. When I look in the mirror i see a beautiful intelligent well educated woman. I am resourceful and competent and I see no need to "cow tow" to anyone. I am an accomplished human being. If because of their lack of self-respect others see the necessity to try to demean me I dismiss them. As for my ancestors I find them beautiful, strong, courageous, kind and compassionate, long suffering, diligent and a fine and intelligent people. I have no shame in them nor will I accept any such claims from people who were clearly their enemies. You too must not. Honor their sacrifice. They suffered so you might live. You are the embodiment of their dreams and hopes for freedom. You are their future hope. Remember you will always be precious to your own people but you will never be precious to a people who cannot see you as a fellow human being. Stop wasting your time trying to gain their affection. Love yourself enough to move past them. If the United States does not suit you build a life somewhere else. There are men of our race all over the world who will welcome you and find you beautiful. my advice to you is an old saying, "Stop beating a dead horse !"

Be proud not all black people are criminals some of the worlds inspirations are black such as Nelson Mandela and president Obama,

I think the most helpful thing I can think of saying is, Just don't pay attention to it? I have had no idea that people were still this racist until you just pointed it out. I mean I'm a white male and I am in no way racist nor do I talk about that with others. So yea. Perhaps not be so involved and getting worked up about it

White people are going extinct, why would you want to side with the losers?

bleach your skin

It's not like that for all people. Maybe you need to chill for a moment you got some major self hate going on.

I'm white and the shame of being white makes me not want to be white. White people have done some appalling things over the centuries. When I'm around other ethnic cultures I feel ashamed and apologetic of my ancestory.

Honestly I wouldn't want to black either the majority of African Americans I've met have been far from sophisticated or intelligent, but I do know a few very smart fun black people.