Is it normal that i act like a little child again?

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Hi,
I'm male, 20yo livin' in the capital of Germany.

Since.... I think 4 or 5 years now, I've got this one problem, which I can't get rid of...

As I wrote, I'm 20yo, but I feel like being around 10.
And I don't only feel like it, I often act like that. It's not only childish, it's childlike.

It first started with the question of the sence of life. Then it got really worse. I wore clothing in size 10 (US/UK / size 140 EUR), I wore my old clothing from my own childhood and new ones which I bought from second hand shops.
I wanted to commit suicide, just to start over again.

Then, suddenly, it stopped. After two years of having these dreams and feelings it completely stopped. I had one year, in which I didn't think any second about that problem.

As suddenly as it stopped, it started again in a new worse way. Since 1 1/2 years now, I have this feelings back in my mind.

Now that I attained the full age, I'm able to buy things on the internet. So I bought me Pokémon-bedding and a Phineas & Pherb pyjama... ... ...

Oh and I like playing with some kind of "click 'n' construct polygons", which are called "jovo".
And I want my mom to give me my set of wooden railway, 'cuz I want to play with it.

I have a good friend, which I want to treat me like a child. (Well, I would like to be treated like a child, but I haven't asked him yet. If I would ask him, I wouldn't know if he could really understand how I feel, and I really don't wanna lose him as one of my best friends. :-/ )

I often want to go out and play at a public playground... With others like me. But I don't know anybody like me. I feel so alone. And if I'd had someone to play with me outside, I don't know if I'd go and play, because of the other people, and their reactions...

I'm really unconfident if this can be right what I do, what I wanna do, and what I'm thinking of.
I know, that I should better go to a psychologist, but I have no energy to to this. So I want you to tell me, what you think about all this, and maybe give me an address where I'm not alone with my problem. Or you tell me, that all this is normal.... (but I don't think so)

Thank you for your reading, attention, and reply!

Oh, and if anybody is going to ask that question if this is a fake: NO, IT'S NOT!!! I'M SERIOUS!!!

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  • Short4Words
    11 years ago

    It's called being an adult "baby" or something, there is a real name for the condition but that's all it is, it's not a life sentence like how most people treat they're illnesses. You said it yourself, you have phases.

    This is a completely non-educated opinion, but here's what I think; you've found that that going back to your childhood is the only way to feel free of the current problems you have, not just that, but maybe you feel unwanted or unloved, and feeling like a child again might bring back those feelings. I don't think it's healthy for you, I think you should grow as an individual and not try to revert back to your younger self even though times are tough. I think you have growing to do and maybe when you revert back to that child like state it is almost a refusal or a denial to grow because it is painful. I'm not entirely sure, but I do think part of it is about avoidance, like I said though, completely uneducated opinion.

    Some people also think it is about not being able to deal with past traumas but I don't see how reverting would change anything.

    I hope you don't go down this road but you have my prayers.

    There's a good documentary on youtube, just search for adult babies, I warn you though, some of it is not pretty. Some people revert back farther than you want to. Anyways, best wishes.

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  • ChaoticBunny
    10 years ago

    I know exactly how you feel. I'm 23 and I still feel like I'm only 10. You sound like an amazing person. I'm still looking for a person who understands me. My whole family thinks I'm strange that I don't act my age. :-( I miss being a child too. I still watch cartoons and play in the park and when nobody's home, I sometimes dance around the house to the wiggles. Lol :-) I'm glad I'm not the only one.

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  • lex-dex
    11 years ago

    Yes, it sounds like a condition that's along the lines of adult regression, where adults (particularly young adults such as yourself) revert to childlike behavior to avoid dealing with adult responsibilities. I think it's probably a good sign that you see that there's a problem and you're willing to seek help. I'm not from around there so I don't know of any places that could provide you with professional help, but I'm sure you could go online and search for a place that can. Goodluck! :)

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  • squirrelgirl
    11 years ago

    I'm a child at heart too. You should see my bedroom, it looks like it's meant for someone half my age; I'm 22 and there are toys wall-to-wall! :)

    My advice is, don't be ashamed that you like stuff meant for kids, but if you know you have underlying things that bother you, you should talk to someone about them.

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