Is it normal that i am a total fucking loser?!

Oh dear dear dear. Settle down. Tell that laundry to fuck itself. See what happens when you put others first? But then when we put ourselves first we're called selfish. Fuckin backwards twisted sonofabitchin world. I am of no help here.

You are hyperventilating right now, sit down for a moment, take a deep breath and relax. Breath in.... Now breath out... Now. Lets start. Do you have a job? I hope you do. If you are looking for roomates go to college and look at the advertisings. Many students post adds for finding roommates at the school. This would be the safest way to do it. I would suggest to just take this year off and working. This way you would save some money for college. Also, apply to FAFSA. Since you live on your own they might help you with paying for school. Look at scholarships. Don't think about loosing time. Of course it is nice to get done early but I am 26 and just got in the program I wanted. I, same as you have wasted too much time on someone who did not deserve it. People who go to school are all in different places of their life. Now. Do you want to start up fresh or transfer your credits. I have known many people who have "forgotten" to mention their past college experience. If you already have an AA why not try for some college program and finish it up, get a good job and then come back to Uni? There are many options. Depends on what you want to do.

we both can be FUCKING losers together

then we can both FUCKING do the laundry together.

lets say it together yes we mothaFUCKING can!!

Ok, take about steps back and breath in through your nose and out through your mouth.

I've been in your situation. 2 years ago I had a crazy incident with roomates, the semester after that I was assaulted. Made me go kind of crazy, there were a lot of memories I'd pushed into oblivion and never touched, and that year just opened up the floodgates to everything I'd never dealt with because it had been too much..

I did poorly in school that year. The year after I ended up dropping all my classes and wasn't even enrolled last semester.

It seems like a lot to recover from, but start tugging on those bootstraps. I'm still unemployed, but I've moved to a better place, I'm back in school part time now and working on the job situation. The thing you've gotta remember is things have been shit for a while, you've gotta be patient and take small steps. Look around on craigslist for a roomate, talk to friends, find a place to stay. If you can get at least part time employment see if you can apply for state housing, since they base it off your income. Start applying for schools, maybe try a community college. Do you have health insurance through your family? Seeing a counselor could help you both with your depression and give you advice to get you back on track.

Don't rush things, celebrate your small victories and above all just relax. Being independant can be a scary thing, but everyone has to do it at some point. When you start getting overly stressed, stop and take a breath and ask yourself "is it really that bad?" and "what can I do to fix this?". Don't let that laundry upset you, you make it suck your dick.

Shut the fuck up whining. It's not hard to get into university, you just have to do a foundation year.

Your not a loser. If college now is so important, why not get a military scholarship?

Okay, do not, whatever you do, kill yourself, do not!! This is a step you have to take in life, it's just a test. You need to think through it, okay? Apply to your backup school, and if need be, you can go to a state college. You are not a failure, by any means. You're focusing too much on the negative point of this situation.
I struggle with grades, and i worry about getting into a college, too, so i think i have an idea of the anxiety you're going through.
But you're fine, you can get into a college. If worse comes to worst, take classes online and get your grades up.
And about finding roommates, that will all fall into place, don't worry about it :)
God bless :)

Being a peace of shit is'nt much to brag about,I'm one too.

Dude, with all this negativity you are conjuring up you are planning yourself to fail. Relax and clear your mind and let logic take its course.

Don't worry you're not loser! Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. My teacher has said not everyone is meant to go to college, but they can still be successful and help people. Out of the worst situations come the best. Failure is success if we learn from it- Malcolm Forbes Just remember to believe in yourself and everything will turn out just right. You can't have a rainbow without the rain! :) Please do not be too hard on yourself and do not hurt yourself or anyone else. Your story is special and there will be a happy ending if you believe it!

Oh yea, life goes on...long after the thrill of living is gone.- John Cougar Mellencamp

I'm a loser too. I'm almost 32. I live at home. I have no job. I have no girlfriend. Nor do I have any prospects. Does it bother me? Fuck no. Get some perspective. We're all gonna die. Ha ha.

lmao cant even concentrate on laundry...

why would you ever focus on somone to this degree?

how did you focus on them instead of you and who are they?

Everything happens for a reason, It might not see promising now, but life takes you on journeys, you'll be okay.

Live like me...find a girl who will pay rent and cook... And work minimum wage and save ur dough little by little...make fun of me but I got thousands saved...I'm already better then most typical American in debt...see wasting all that time in college doesn't mean u will get that career job...

Who put this stuff in your head that the center of everyone's life is "going to school". Try getting jobs and meeting new people and seeing what works for you, not necessarily what you "love" doing, but what you can do and what pays you money.

I think the government run school system is going to implode and I hope so, you can teach yourself anything without listening to arrogant, overpaid, greedy, liberal, corrupt union teachers who don't care. Educate yourself first to see what works for you, then see what you want to learn more formally. Don't come out of government school with some useless degree and $75,000 in debt. There are a few exceptions to this such as advanced math or engineering or scientific jobs (you know, the ones most don't want to do)

Don't react to every thought that comes into your head, it will make you a lunatic, let those thoughts blow by you, then get on doing things such as chores. Take your time.

It's so normal but what I have learned is that I have lots of time still to get it right, and the things now don't matter too much.

I replied to you from another account since I don't remember the password to this one :) email me :) it would be easier

lol yeah i'm a loser too! i'm just like you

Basically how old are you and what are you going to school for? Female or male. Which state are you in? I might be able to give you more pointers if i know which category to pinpoint you to.