Is it normal that i am afraid to decompose when i die
death is something that i cannot avoid, it's inevitable. that's not what bothers me. What does bother me is IF i die suddenly and then decompose in my bedroom, or somewhere that others would be able to smell my rotting corpse. Also, it would take time to clean and i Do NOT want my bodily fluids to leak through anything.
this is why i think the best option is cremation although the thought of being burned (while dead of course) is terrifying. I've seen online what decomposing corpses look like and i do not want to be one of those people.