Is it normal that i am becoming more and more depressive?

Everyone has their troubles and worries caused by many factors. If you don't find the original reason and deal with it, you could become more and more anxious and depressed. I believe you can fix up your troubles by your courage because most of us have not the courage to be a transgender.
It's advisable to find some ways to distract your attention such as seeing a film or doing outdoor exercises. What's more, people will stimulate pessimistic emotion when they stay alone. So if you love animals, I think you can raise one of them, such as a kitten or a puppy, it will accompany you and give your comfort whenever you need. Many people who have social anxiety disorder will go shopping with their dog or ESA/service dog, because the dog can calm them down while they feel anxious to the strangers. Luckily, many places and stores now are friendly to dogs. Read on to know the guide to shopping with a dog. (https://www.supportdogcertification.org/article/short-guide-shopping-your-dog-and-list-dog-friendly-stores)

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Why isn't there a poll??

Your psychologist should be able to help, but you have to be completely open and honest with them for them to be able to help you.

Just wait until the appointment with this psychologist. It's the most effective thing you can do. In the meantime, try keep your mind off it and stay positive. Do you have any interests or hobbies?

You will get a better idea as to the relative normalcy of your quandary with a poll on your post.