Is it normal that i am so terrified of death?
Every Single Day for the past about year I have thought about death. EVERY SINGLE DAY. No matter what I do, I cannot get it off my mind. I have tried everything besides antidepressants. Nothing seems to work for me. My mother died when I was 7, and I didn't start realizing what death really was, until about a year ago. Since then, everything that involves life, scares me. My father smokes, and I am afraid that he is going to die soon, and I don't know what I would do. Every night for the past 6 months, I have cried myself to sleep, no matter how good of a day I had. Recently, I got a girlfriend. She has made some things a lot better, but still I cannot fathom death. When I am in school, whether watching a film, or doing classwork, it is always on my mind. Nothing can get it off. I just want something to help me. I know everybody says oh just do stuff you'll enjoy with your friends, and do more things. It doesn't work. I try to accept that death will come sooner or later, but I am just so depressed. I need help.