Is it normal that i can't be myself?
This past year I have felt frustrated because I can't be myself around other people. Originally, I had a few really close friends who knew everything about me. Then, those friendships died or ended up hurting me in the end. Now I am not consistent around other people. My personality changes with the setting I am in and I only allow certain parts to be shown whenever I feel like they are accepted. The reason it is concerning is because whenever I was little I would always get an adrenaline rush whenever I shared anything about myself. As if I was scared of letting anyone see my true self. Whenever I am around others I just feel uneasy. Furthermore, I try to show my personality piece by piece but my friends always end up leaving or not caring. Despite all the effort I put into the friendship. Do I have an emotional condition such as being bipolar or am I just a normal analytical person?