Is it normal that i cannot control my own thoughts?

Crazy would be a bit too much.

If you thought that you're probably going a bit hard on yourself.

I believe you are experiencing anxiety and/or OCD.

Decrease the speed of your physical actions to 25%, it’ll slow down your thoughts and give you a chance to stop them.

Intrusive thoughts are normal. Sometimes I feel tempted to stab my own eyeballs out and calmly walk into the street to see (no pun intended) how people react.

You're not nuts; in fact, if you're young, what you're experiencing is perfectly normal. It takes most people some time to learn how to have some control over the weird shit that goes on in the huge tangle of neurons in our skull. Some people never succeed in doing that, and they go through life being the victims of their negative, worst-case, self-destructive thoughts.

The particular thoughts you mention are very common. We all desperately want to believe that we have control over what happens to us and those we care about, but the fundamental reality is that we don't. "Shit happens" is a pretty succinct summation of life. Sometimes good shit happens to us, and sometimes the shit is really, really bad. Truly accepting that fact can be very challenging.

Lots of people fall into the trap of believing that if they worry about something happening, that has the power to make the thing they fear more likely to occur. In some cases that's true: if you believe you're likely to fail a test at school or do badly at a job interview, that makes it more likely you will. But if you're not driving a car, you worrying about it crashing makes it no more or less likely to happen, and you worrying about someone getting ill and dying doesn't make that any more or less likely to happen either.

You thinking positively about winning the jackpot when you buy a lottery scratch-card doesn't make it more likely to happen; you worrying about someone you love dying doesn't make that more likely to happen.

Some people feel that if they think about something bad happening to someone they care about, that must mean they secretly want it to happen, and so they punish themselves for having those thoughts. But hurting yourself for those negative thoughts only makes them seem much more important, and inflicting pain on yourself doesn't convince God, the cosmos, karma or whatever to never allow the thing you fear to happen.

The only things we are really in control of is what we do, what we say to others, how we chose to interpret the things we experience and how we react to them. When you have these unpleasant thoughts, you could try asking yourself if the bad thing is something you have some control over. If it is, then shift your thinking to trying to figure out what you can do to make the negative thing less likely to happen. If it's something you have no control over, then you might try thinking about the "fears under the fear".

For example, if the thought of your parents dying terrifies you, it could be that what you're really afraid of is being alone in the world and nobody loving you, needing to look after yourself and not knowing how you could cope with that or having no identity of your own. All of those fears are very likely irrational to some degree, since most people are more resilient than they believe. And there are most likely concrete things you could do now to make those things less likely if the worst should happen. I'm not suggesting that you should strive to become blasé about whether your parents live or die, but the facts of biology mean that most children outlive their parents, and we all need to become independent sooner or later.

Yes I have this. I feel like if when I notice my weird thoughts and try to figure ways to correct it it gets worse because im thinking about it more and i notice more. Also if I try not to correct it and hope it goes away because I'm not thinking about it it gets worse.

If u figure it out lemme know. I tried the therapy i forget the name of it but its to fix weird shit but it didnt really help me

Much of what you're experiencing are called "intrusive thoughts". Look for that term online and you'll find some good resources to help you.

What many people never ever realize is that we are actually fully capable of controlling not just our emotions, but our thoughts as well. Our entire perspectives are self-created: it's why depressive people can perceive something as terrible while an optimistic person could see it in an entirely different light.

Because we're in control of our thoughts, we're responsible for them as well. It's the most empowering message you can give someone, though many people don't like being accused of being the source of their own misery. Don't be one of those people. Take responsibility and take control, and you'll be amazed at what you can make your experience out to be.

Totally normal; and you are unlikely to be successful at anything until you do in fact learn to control your thoughts in most situations.

I've never met a highly successful person who has not learned how to control their own thoughts in most situations. Most of them will tell you that they did not start that way.

There are many good books on the subject and I'm sure plenty of youtube videos as well.

You can be in control. Its up to you though, as no one else can do this for you.

I wish you well with this,

🌞meditate, find inner peace
control your thoughts

& if u believe its a religious stuff, stop believing its religious...

Because some of them aren’t your thoughts...

Have you tried turning it off and then on again?