Is it normal that i did something i really regret on webcam?
I have this FaceBook friend who is a guy from Japan. I met him on a pen-pal site but I've never met him in person. He's 21 and I'm 18. Well, A couple months ago, we were chatting and eventually it progressed to dirty talk, and he sent me a picture of his, you-know-what. I have to admit, I really like him. Also, as there are no guys in my area that I have these feelings for, he was like my escape from the loneliness I feel within - I've never had a boyfriend or even kissed.
Well, last night I did something I regret. After months of persuading me to show him my body, I finally gave in, because he threatened that if I didn't then he would stop talking to me. So I showed him my boobs on FaceTime. I'm not proud of it, and I feel used... I can't help feeling like this could come back to haunt me, and I don't want anybody I know to find out... I know that he'll keep asking me for more and more and I'm afraid that if I don't, then he will either stop talking to me or screenshot it and send it around. Luckily, I didn't show my face in the video. Please help! I really, really like him, but I don't like him pressuring me, and I'm afraid to do it again for fear of it coming back to me.
What should I do if he asks me for more? Truth is, if I was with him in person it would be a different story, it's just that I find the internet too risky. In a way I wanted to as well, but another even bigger part of me was screaming that it was a bad idea, yet I did it anyway. What should I do? Whenever I think of last night I feel sick to the pit of my stomach at how stupid I am.