Is it normal that i don't like talking
I really don't. And it is not like that I don't have anything to talk about. On the contrary, I am very knowledgeable in many areas from the history of chess to analytical number theory to giallo movies to another esoteric field. But whenever I talk to a person, I sense that he/she is not listening to me or he/she doesn't care about it much. If it's some kind of a discussion, I am usually sure that I cannot change his/her viewpoint, and same for him/her too. So why bother? Besides, there is this thing that I sometimes pause to find the best/most optimal words/phrases and person's interest is easily shifted to something else at these points.
Sometimes I feel that I am the outsider even among the other outsiders, and think of totally immersing myself in doing the things (often solitary) that I enjoy and speak only when I have to! But this attitude probably will make others dislike me even more, right?