Is it normal that i don't want to go to heaven?
Thinking of eternal life horrified me. Everyone says Heaven is a place for perfect life and endless happiness. I don't get the balance in it. Does life still have meaning when everything is so perfect? They sing hymns, live lives without worries, happily laugh, eat and drink wine with God, while turning a blind eye to people who suffer in hell. When I die, I don't want to undergo such self-centered happiness. I'd rather contribute to humanity by giving moral assistance to people who suffer in hell, because they are also humans like us. I think they still deserve happiness no matter what they have done. But maybe God won't support this idea, right?