Is it normal that i fear spoons?
when I was 9 my father started to beat me with a wooden spoon that he would refer to as "the spanky spoon" as a form of discipline, eventually when I reached the 7th grade people in my school found out about and this my friends would start bringing wooden spoons to school to hit me with them, i tried asking teachers at the time for help but they would just send me to the clinic to get ice for my bruises, but shortly after the teachers would just start ignoring me whenever I plead for help. I'm now 33 years old and I still cant even go near a spoon without breaking into a sweat, it's even led to the point where my girlfriend has had to move back out of the house in fear that I may break down whenever she cooks. is any of this even normal?