Is it normal that i feel like 'hurting' this cat, even though i don't?

I've been at my cousin's house for some months now, and she has a cat. Well, I have never hurt animals and hate animal abuse. The cat is so cute and I pet it daily and it purrs and we like each other. But here's the strange thing that makes me depressed and hate myself. The cat is so 'cute' that sometimes I get an 'urge' to 'hurt' it. Now this doesn't include hitting or slapping but more like 'squeezing' it, hugging it too hard even though I know it'll feel uncomfortable, etc. Once I was hugging it so hard and it was meowing to get away but it made me hug it harder. It's like the 'cuteness' of its face, furriness, and meowing makes me want to 'hurt' it this way. It makes me feel disgusting after and I cry.

For instance, I was in my room just a few hours ago. I heard that cat meowing downstairs, and its meow is so cute and squeaky. It made me want to run to it and start smooching and hugging it but in a way I know it hates. The thing is, when I see or hear human babies I wouldn't ever squeeze it or hug it too hard, but if it's an animal this urge starts happening. It's like I 'don't' abuse animals, yet I 'do'. In another instance, many years back, there used to a be a cute bunny in my front yard. Well, it would visit often and I loved it. Once this 'cruel' thought took over me, I filled a cup with water, went out, and splashed the entire water on the bunny, which got scared and darted away. I now realize it could have died. So, are these feelings of hurting animals and actually doing things I know is bad for them 'normal'? And why is it happening? Thanks!