Is it normal that i feel like i didn't enjoy my youth?
Right now, I am 25 years old and living a relatively normal life. However, I didn't have a good childhood and I was never around good companies for quite a good while.
I kind of had to become independent and responsible very early in my life. My family was always kind of absent to me. Neither my parents or my siblings were caring people for me. So I just stopped relying on people since I was a kid... but at the same time, I always had a weakness for "broken" people, so I became someone to rely on for many others. This attracted emotional needy people or even some with self destructive tendencies.
But anyway, the issue is that now I am an adult already... but I feel a little void inside of me. I feel like I was never able to enjoy a carefree youth. But even now, I just can't avoid being the "responsible guy" wherever I go. Yet, in some way, I just want to be "protected" by someone else too. I am tired of hiding my weaknesses and pretending to be strong.
So, I just wanted to share this with you guys and see what you think. So, is this normal?